The feeling I can't shake after Phillies nightmare ending

That one hit harder.

There are times to be angry. There are times to be disappointed. There are times to scream and yell.

And there are times to feel something totally different.

As the Dodgers celebrated one of the biggest mental blunders in MLB postseason history to walk off the Phillies in Game 4 of the NLDS, my feelings toward the team, Orion Kerkering, Rob Thomson and Bryce Harper’s team wasn’t of anger, annoyance, frustration or anything like that.

But there’s been one feeling I’ve been harboring since Kerkering threw the ball to the backstop.